L o v e W i t h A M i s s i o n . c o m English | Deutsch Home ................. Personal Stuff ................. Guestbook ................. Links ................. Credits Click here to read more Be still and know that I am God... Yesterday I had planned to spend a couple of hours in the afternoon with God, then...I forgot... *blush* In the evening I was driving home, and just before I came to our house I thought, "No, I can't go home now, I need to go find some place that's quiet and spend some time with God." So I drove by my house, up a hill, parked somewhere next to a road, walked a ways down a track, and sat down. ...and I was cold...it's really hard to concentrate when you're cold...so I didn't actually pray very much or hear much back from God, except "be still and know that I am God." That place I went to was out in the middle of nowhere, so it was pretty quiet, and my God, was that wonderful... Sometimes I think we just need quietude, tranquility; otherwise we go insane... My life feels like a roller coaster right now, and now, more than ever, I realize how much I need to just be still, and know that God is in control, that He's there, that He loves me, even when it sometimes feels like no one else does, or when I feel like no one could ever love such a mess like myself. (It's incredible what PMS can do to a woman's sense of self-worth...) Because it was cold I didn't stay too long, and as I was getting into my (dad's) car I felt like I wasn't supposed to buckle my seatbelt... Lol, my first reaction was, "But I have to, it's illegal NOT to!" And I felt like God told me, "You don't always have to do what people expect of you..." I don't know whether that was really God or not (I didn't wear my seatbelt on my way home by the way...), but I don't think I'll ever forget that night... Sometimes I do think we care a lil too much about what people expect of us... It shouldn't really matter since when we die we can't take our good (or bad) reputation with us...or anything else for that matter... In our house group tonight someone told me a story about a guy who felt like God was telling him to go into a shop and do a headstand. Lol, of course he didn't think that was such a great idea and protested at first, but he ended up doing it anyway and was about to leave the store right afterwards (I can imagine he was feeling somewhat embarrassed...), when suddenly someone, I think it was the store manager, ran up to him. He told the guy that he had told God that if someone came into his shop and performed a headstand, then he would believe that God existed. That man became a Christian...all because someone had the courage to do something out of the norm that he felt God wanted him to do... Lol, living for God is certainly not boring... ;-) So, to summarize: It's really, really, REALLY important to have quiet times with God... And it's also really important to do whatever God tells you to do in those times...even if it's something somewhat unusual... :-) ... Top of Page ↑